这样就删除了？！

今天心血来潮看看自己的旧blog。发现最新的post是去年的“领悟”。感觉挺伤感的，没想清楚就按了delete。就那一下，没了。
或许不应该删除自己曾经有过的感想，但是现在感觉已经不一样了，明白很多事只是当下的错觉。离一件事或一个人远了，就看得更清楚了。按下删除的时候，是不想留下那个埋怨別人的自己。没更新blog就好象让人觉得自己停留在那儿一样。我想，我可能真的比较适合写日记。

Watching Story~

Movie taught me a lot and made me feel a lot. I watched "Saving Mr. Banks" today with my friend, Rebecca... feel the dilemma between reality and imagination, stress of a helpless mother, love in a family, expectation to someone, forgiveness. I wanted to watch this with my friends but apparently not everyone enjoy this kind of movie and they might see this as boring... well for us, not at all. It is kind of hard to find a friend that will watch movie with you, appreciate a movie like you do. I remember last time watching a movie with Rebecca alone was also a movie that I could not find others company. "About Time"... another movie that touched me and made me cry. As the title, mentioned, the movie is about time... how a person use his time when he can travel in time, and also family love, especially between his father and him. Recently, after knowing the use of Astro Beyond... I like to record movie and watch when I free. Some movie I heard before but never watched. I remember seeing "Hitchcock" trailer with someone in cinema and said I would want to watch it but I didn't."This means war" a movie that my ex bf should have watched with me but didn't... "Click" a movie my uni friend mentioned... all I recorded and watched at home. It just a coincidence that "This means war" mentioned "Hitchcock" in the movie.... It turns out that I enjoyed all the movies and the "Hitchcock" movie stay in my mind longer... especially the conversation between his wife and him after showing the sand he found in the toilet. The man just forgot or neglected how his wife helped him and stand by him all those years until one day she went to do what she likes. A woman that sacrifices for her husband, a story in movie, stories in real life. I also fell for a series... "Sherlock" season 3. I missed previous season but I'm glad I watching it now, better than never. There's a scene where things doesn't seems right and people started to doubt Sherlock as a fake, but his friend Watson believes in him. In that moment, I felt the importance of a true best friend that will believe in you when others don't. It makes me think of my friend, Jaycee. It is really great to have a friend that I believe will stand by me and be there when I need her. I am not looking forward to the situation when I only can count on my friend but the existence of such friend is highly appreciated. I also watched many meaningful and interesting movie with her.. " Mandela: Long walk to freedom" (about unconditional love, sacrifices, human nature, hatred, racism, how experience can change a person), "Bucket List" (things to do before die) , "Diving bell and butterfly" (how he live his life in his paralyzed body but conscious awareness... I like the quote "we are all children, we need recognition"), "Seven Pounds" .... Those movie might seems boring to some people, but I'm glad that I watched it with someone who appreciated it.

死亡

你如何看待死亡？
今天看了朋友分享的影片，说到死前想做什么。
我看完后在想，我有什么不做会后悔的事情吗？如果我明天将死去，我会后悔什么？
但是我想到的却是遗憾没能感激我身边的人。
我不是什么伟大的人，但是我会做想做的事，做我觉得该做的事。
我相信我不会毫无遗憾，但也不会死不瞑目。
老实说，我反而想到，我死后会如何？
虽然我都有表达我的感激和抱歉。
但是我希望我死后，人们会再一次，最后一次，知道我对他们的感激。
死前该做的，我会去做。
死后该做的，我无法自己做，但是我希望其他人可以知道。
所以我和朋友约定了，写下年轻的遗言，让对方收起来。
当我们其中一方死后，请另一方阅读，传达我们的信息。
如果我突然去世了，希望家人成全我捐赠器官，希望家人和朋友知道我对他们的感激。
虽然我不是什么成功人士，但是我觉得自己活得精彩。
如果我只能说两个字，我会说谢谢。

生气，因为我自私

总觉得我很多时候都会变得很小气，
生气，因为觉得有人不体谅我。
生气，因为觉得有人在言语或动作上太过分。
但其实， 是我自私地认为。。。
他们应该要了解我，体谅我，让我。
他们应该知道什么是对我好，什么对我不好。
但其实。。。是我不够体谅人

烦恼

烦恼就像是杂乱的绳结，
解开绳结就像是一种任务，
人生中有许多难关，许多烦恼，
把‘难关’变成‘挑战’，
把‘烦恼’变成‘奋斗’，
别为难关而烦恼，
要为挑战而奋斗，而那挑战期间就是成长的时候。

因了解而分开

回想起我以前的恋爱故事，
觉得自己学了不少。
男女之间真的需要真正了解才能在一起的，
我曾经因为不了解而伤害了某人。
在还没确定自己是不是喜欢他，
是不是和他合得来之前，
不能在一起。。。
因为你不知道对方有多认真，
对方太认真的话，你因了解而分开时，他会受重伤。
对方不认真的话，他因了解而分开时，你会受重伤。
所以。。。先了解，才开始。别因了解而分开。

忍耐，忍让。认清，看开。

‘忍’是个很大的学问，
有人说；人上人就是能忍人所不能忍。
能忍耐和忍让的人真的很厉害，
但是他们忍的同时，会不会辛苦呢？
他们是把气忍下来了吗？
忍下来的气会消吗？

人不是因为忍而高明，
而是因为有看清一切，明白道理的能力而高明。
只要能看清，那就会了解，然后就会看得开，最后就不生气了。
那根本就不需要忍了。

生气的时候，把自己的角色换一换，
变成自己生气的对象，
变成中间人或第三者，
你就能看得更清楚明白了。